suicide, drugs, fairgrounds new love, and piercings

oh well this is fun, a month ago i attempted suicide, large overdose, was in hospital over night, i split up with my bf a couple days later, and its a really fucked up situation, i got a new bf, he is so lovely, and then aa week ago i overdosed again, didnt go to hospital but was really ill for days, then i went to work, still ill at a fair, i was working one of the rides, the chairoplanes, was all cool till i shorted out the electric, lol, i been smoking more weed, and getting high more often, and i got my tongue and medusa[ middle of top lip] pierced, i lost 7lbs last week, and im hoping for another loss this week, my new bf is not happy with my eating habits. but oh well.

its getting real crappy now

well this is fun...... i possibly have borderline personality disorder.  not good, i am selfharming again, burning my arm with cigerettes, things not going good with my boyfriend, who iu live with, but dnt wanna live with, some of my friends are real worried about me, one of whome knows so much about me, and is always there for me, he is awsume, we did coke together the other night, i am drinking more, doing more drugs, [the drug thing is no biggie, it avereges out at  half a gram a month of coke, and countless amounts of weed] i am contemplating suicide  again, and i have just lost my motivation for anything. so basically things are going shit.