4 years

just over 4 years since i tried to di, i failed so much twice in 2 weeks and i didnt succeed, tho i will soon, it will work, ill not let my body get the better of me, noooo way! i shall die, i shalll get what i deserve.

thinner

dunno by how much my scales are fucked and i cant afford new ones. but my friend said i looked thinner, so im hoping its true. i feel like such a fat bitch right now as i had arctic roll for pudding, and ive just had enough im cutting more and burning more, and taking more risks, hell i even purged again a few days ago, and in promised myself i wernt gonna do that. i give up, im fed up of this fucked up life, the only good bits are drunken days with my best friend A, we sat along then seafront and got drunk and smoked rosemary, [dunno y it isnt even a drug, we were being wierd] and we were scaring joggers, an it was so cool, we had no sleep that night, we went back to mine once j had gone to work and we ate a pasta and prawn omlette, and it was just so much fun.